This story is all about my experience with alopecia.
I was roughly 18 at the time enjoying college doing sport and leisure as my dream job was to become a gym instructor to help others to train hard and reach there goals.
You can ask anyone my hair was me, a bit over the top now i look back on photos, longish straight hair, blonde streaks, always gelled, I was constantly checking in mirrors to see if my hair is ok!
Well.. one day i woke up in my girlfriends bed and i saw lots of hair on my pillow and hers, for some reason i thought this was her dog hair but it wasn’t, i realized when i had a shower my hair was pouring out like the water i was washing it with. I was scared and confused why am i losing my hair?
I didn’t know about alopecia at the time so i just kept hoping and hoping that it will stop. Every day was a day of more loss of hair. until one day I came back home drunk rocking on the sofa debating what to do but I went bravely got the electric shavers i shaved it completely off.
I got use to being bald in the end, it wasn’t until my eye brows and eye lashes fell out then i began to think what is happening to me? Amazing just by losing my eye browns/lashes I had no expression on my face. I didn’t look like myself anymore. I soon lost every bit of hair on my body. Which for a fully grown man doesn’t seem right and my confidence was shattered.
I left my dream to be a fitness instructor. I left college. I left my girlfriend, and pretty much locked myself away from the world!
Soon after i left college my tutor called me saying i may have a apprentice at a gym and the manager would like me to come in for a interview. The joys of hearing this. thank you to the collage and the tutor i could still reach my dream! But i was always haunted thinking what other people will think of me because not alot of people know or seen this condition before, i was worried and excited still.
Good news! I got the job and i worked as a fitness instructor about 3 years then i moved onto sales side of things what i enjoy more and hopefully a future in sales.
My hair did grow back which I was really lucky about but my eye brows and lashes still didn’t, but my confidence started to return I started living my life again doing what normal 18 year old lads do. Until one day I went out to a snooker bar with my friends, I went to to toilet looked in the mirror and styled my nice full head of thick hair that I had proudly grown back when it just came out into my hands in clumps again! So.. here is was again back to square one my confidence just shot through the floor and I just wanted to go home and hide back away.
In the end i got use to my hair not being there and grew confident in myself, people will always ask what has happened to my hair as I am now left with patches, they sometimes get better and I look like my hair thick and dark but it can also go the other way and have lots of bald patches and my hair looks really light. I used to lie as I couldn’t bare telling people that I had this condition but now I have nothing to hide, I am proud of who I am and I am happy to talk to people about the condition. Alopecia is where your body attacks your hair folicals it can be caused my shock, stress worrying or for no reason at all. I have always believed that it happened to me after my Grandad died of cancer (RIP) I as very close to him he was such a promenant figure in my life and someone I looked up too, I used to bike 14 miles a day to visit him.
When I first realized I had alopecia I was in a dark place, not many people had heard of this condition and I had never seen anyone with it. i hid myself away and didn’t want to talk to anyone in case they judged me. But now I am strong, I am who I am whether I have hair or not, if anything it has made me stronger and also made me realise you cannot judge anyone. The saying is right don’t judge a book by its cover!
I am no author but wanted to share my story with you all. Everyone is welcome to ask questions or guidance if you have experienced or experiencing anything like this yourself. Please see pictures.
Thank you for your time. All ways look on the bright side of life.